A Year of Making Art: Day 86

July 14, 2007  Day 86

I am definitely depressed, but not sure exactly how I got here.  There were signs the last few days when I had all I could do to control my irritability with Adrian.  He's the first one to suffer when I'm feeling down.

Painting was awful today, and the drawing wasn't much better.   I made a rule for myself that I had to use only the Pitt brush pens, and that led to a muddled mess.  I like to make strong lines, pressing down on the paper, and you just can't do that with a fine brush!  I guess this means I will stick to the Zigg calligraphy pens in the future.

  Drawing #87  14" x 11"

At the end of yesterday's painting session, I had liked the canvas I was working on, but this morning I could see few redeeming features in it.  So I applied paint.  And more paint.  I scraped off paint.  I applied more paint.  I got nowhere and finally quit for the day.

I don't know what to do about my mood.  I am really pissed off at Owen, who says "I'll be there when I get there."  I am irritable, paranoid, and sure that no good will come of anything.

(Note:  There is a gap between the dates I'm writing and posting because I had to give myself time to get ahead in case we travel and I'm not able to post.)