Sorry I haven't written in a month and a half. For a while there it looked pretty grim. That's how depression makes everything look.
How did I get out of it? I have a fabulous therapist, and together we made a list of things I might do that would be helpful.
One thing on the list was trying once again to find a medication that would work for me. I am super sensitive to side effects, and had already tried so many. But I went to a specialist in psychiatric meds, and after seeing her, started on a low dose of Zoloft.
A month later I'm off the Zoloft and feeling great. The Zoloft turned me into a lazy zombie. It also gave me severe diarrhea. It's such a relief to be "back to being me" again!
The other stuff is all good: therapy, meditation, walks in the woods, accepting support from family and friends. I just can't do the med thing any more.
Adrian is now deeply depressed, so maybe we are just trading places?